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Memento Mori- A Tribute to Death

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I saw a man die once [May. 5th, 2010|12:27 pm]
Memento Mori- A Tribute to Death


..it was in a parking lot. He lay there pissing himself on the cold concrete with his groceries scattered about (a container of sour cream rolling away from him - I helpfully stopped it with my foot) and none of the dozen people that were milling there (including myself) knew CPR. I thought of just thumping him on the chest as I had seen on tv but I didn't. I regret it now, I am human after all. Watching the person that DID thump him on the chest as his lips turned blue and his life's breath floated above him I realized that I should have pushed the person away and thumped him in my own fashion but I did not. I was gutless and walked away after a while, groceries in hand and delicately stepping over the thin stream of urine to my car. Wiping the snot and tears from my face in the car I realized that life was indeed brutal and set out thereafter to take a CPR course. I didn't take that course, instead I decided to take a lazy and convoluted course and have a child that would take it for me years down the road. One day when I myself am laying in a parking lot with a thin stream of urine emanating from my crotchal area, I hope that she will be with me. As an afterthought, I guess I could have thumped him as hard as I could, in a blood-crazed frenzy. Who would have stopped me? Anyone else see someone die?

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[User Picture]From: morty_baby
2010-05-06 03:43 pm (UTC)
Yes, it's a journey that you make all by yourself. Nobody can be with you at the end, you are ultimately, all alone. In a perfect world, the parent dies before you, that is just the way it is. It must be horrible to have a child die before you.

I used to lay in the dark and cry when I was a (fucked up) little kid, thinking about my parents dying. I wonder if that's a common thing with little kids.
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